after you have thoroughly purified yourself and your mind is right...
go to itunes and type in "Schwarzennegger" (however you spell it) and "its raining men."
"that which does not kill us makes us stronger"
--Nietzsche
"Nietzsche is Dead"
--God
Sunday, February 10, 2008
Saturday, February 9, 2008
"Baio" Fuels
I think the thing is that first of all they are clearing land (killing trees) to grow the raw products and then you need to use conventional fuels to run the refineries, then to transport the shit etc. making it a net loser (more goes in than comes out). Its just not efficient enough. BUT, I think its definitely worth being suspect regarding anyones motivation in just dismissing alternative fuels. There are obviously and definitely big interests with a lot to lose (or gain). Also, every new industry and even company usually has to go through a period of inefficiency/operating at a loss until organization/technology/processes etc. become more efficient. Why would this be any different? I agree that the answer will probably be many little things adding up rather than "THE ANSWER"--a Mr. Fusion from Back to the Future. At least in the short run. Improving mileage standards might not solve the problem but it gives you a small gain. Build a few wind farms. Build some wave farms, givetax breaks for solar panels, inflate your tires. All the sudden, the 5% here and 3% there start adding up!
here's a good (meaning well written--its still a bit depressing) article by George Will from Newsweek:
http://www.newsweek.com/id/107575
oh yeah, and my alternate plan? Put Scott Baio on a treadmill hooked into the grid, feed him sugar and cocaine, hook him into the grid and don't let him off until we're completely weaned off fossil fuels.
Buddy can use a stationary bike.
And I get to marry the hot sister.
here's a good (meaning well written--its still a bit depressing) article by George Will from Newsweek:
http://www.newsweek.com/id/107575
oh yeah, and my alternate plan? Put Scott Baio on a treadmill hooked into the grid, feed him sugar and cocaine, hook him into the grid and don't let him off until we're completely weaned off fossil fuels.
Buddy can use a stationary bike.
And I get to marry the hot sister.
Friday, February 8, 2008
Who needs Halo?
Supposedly an air force hand-eye coordination training tool. Still easier than landing in nintendo Top Gun. I mean, I'm ten years old and just shelled out 50 bucks for this piece of shit. Can you let me get to the second round. Tyson Punch-Out too! I'm fucking pissed just thinking about it. I mean, you have to jump just to reach his head. Reset, reset, reset.
http://members.iinet.net.au/~pontipak/redsquare.html
I got 19 and change.
http://members.iinet.net.au/~pontipak/redsquare.html
I got 19 and change.
Friday, February 1, 2008
The Consolation of Philosophy
What up Braddah. I'm not ready to leave NY yet...I just wonder if its ready for me!! So much BS surrounding job-hunting, as I'm sure you know. Hopefully, I can just get something until September and then start school. If I don't get into any schools then its gonna be a bummer. Oh well, I'll persevere. I do love Cali. My sis lived in SF for a few years and then moved up to Sebastapol area, near Sonoma and Santa Rosa I think. So nice up there. I like the whole state (except LA) from what I've seen. People are different though--definite East Coast/West Coast difference I find. Although where you are and SF etc. there are so many transplants and its cosmopolitan so it takes on a vibe of its own that can't properly be called Californian. But I digress. Or do I?
For me, I still like NYC. Only other place I'd think about is further east...London, Paris, Istanbul. I'd like to work for Barclays or BNP Paribas or one of those European banks when I finish one of these programs. Don't tell anyone though--gotta keep the street cred. Did you hear about the 31 year old equities trader at Societe Generale, the French bank? Fucking guy was using 50 billion to trade index futures. His losses accumulated to about 7 billion US. The irony is that supposedly he was actually way ahead, and then purposely tried to lose money because his gains would have exceeded his mandate--only the losses began to grow faster than he could handle. I think if he had gone to his boss and said "Sir, I have made ze company billions of dollarz, even zo I broke ze rules" his boss would've probably said "Never ever break the rules again. And by the way, you're promoted." Oh what a tangled web we weave.
In other news, you get to go skiing at all (not cocaine, the real kind) so far? Hows the neck? Hows Elaine? And whats up with the therapist? Just to talk things out or are you having problems or what? You can talk to me man. Seriously. Well not talk, but write. I studied philosophy you know. I know the answers to the meaning of life. The rub for me comes down to whether there is free will or determinism. I mean, did you ever see Lawrence of Arabia: "Nothing is written" Lawrence (Peter O'Toole) says. Because the Arabs always say "Insh'allah" (if God wills it). This is the basic point of the existentialists: that there is no "essence" to be discovered, that existence precedes essence. This existential freedom can cause great Angst, as Kierkegaard writes about--because we are so radically free, there is nothing to refer to to say "oh yeah, no I've found the 'right way'" etc. Kierkegaard's answer (apologies to Kierkegaard for summarizing the philosophy he took 5,000 pages and 4 different pseudonyms to explain but) is that instead of living life freely as a libertine, chasing after a series of unrelated "experiences" we must make commitments and ultimately, make a commitment to the absurd idea that THROUGH our very choice, we create/discover Reality. Of course Kierkegaard was a Christian. Nietszche writes about overcoming this loss of God (of an essential, transcendent reality) through aesthetic endeavor; his point is that it shouldn't be a depressing idea that there is no "reality" or "right way" or "real self" to be discovered, but that we should be happy that we get to live our lives as our own creations. Of course, Nietzsche eventually went crazy and lived with his mom and sister till he died. But the idea is good.
The thing is, all these philosophers are saying that the idea that there is no "right way" to be discovered can be a heavy and burdensome concept--as we are then responsible for ourselves and the outcomes of our lives--but the flip side to this is that we are able to live our lives as we wish to create them. Our life can be like our own novel. For me this is a freeing idea--if I ever feel overwhelmed I just think about myself in history or my life as a novel. Because who wants to read a novel about someone who gets straight A's through high school and college and then works there way up through the ACME corporation and retires to Florida to golf and then dies. Not a bestseller.
But on the other hand from all the existential stuff, when I have deja-vu, I really think, oh yeah, there is a determinism, there is a destiny, you know? Not to get too pop-sciency here, but all the new crazy discoveries/theories in quantum physics/string theory etc. sound similar to all this. Heisenberg's uncertainty principle, multiple dimensions, parallel universes.
Who knows, is the correct answer? But good thing--what if there was no mystery?? That is Hell. Ever see the Twilight Zone episode where the gambler "goes to heaven." He is there, girls are easy and he wins every hand, hand after hand of cards, he keeps winning. And then he realizes, he's not in heaven but in hell!! Spooky. A good piece of advice I heard recently from an unlikely source (I don't consider myself much of a Mormon), Mitt Romney said his dad told him "Do not despair, but even if you despair, work on."
I'm definitely having a bit of an early mid-life crisis here. I mean, I don't even have a job, I broke up with my girlfriend of 3 years (live-in!) and I'm living with my parents!! Ha! Its so ridiculous, I can't even get that upset about it. Its absurd! But, perseverance. Like Nietszche says "That which doesn't kill you makes you stronger. I definitely believe that. Also getting laid here once in a while which always helps. Snuck a girl I met in the bar into my bedroom on Christmas eve for a nice early morning Christmas present. Ahhh, heathen! I like to think of it as recreating the conception (except I'm guessing she wasn't a virgin).
Anyway, don't mean to pontificate, its just I'm thinking about some of the same shit you are probably. I know there is more to life than making money and a good job--I mean, thats been my modus operandi since I was about 15 years old. But still, I'm at a time in my life, I think like even biologically, where I just want to be making dough and telling people what to do and running shit. And instead, I'm drinking coffee and playing computer chess at my parents house on a cold rainy day when I was tan and surfing Hawaii 2 months ago. Even so, I'm happier now than I was 2 months ago because I was frustrated there. Work on (and rock on?). Aight, like they say bout Makena...'nuff already!
In other news, you get to go skiing at all (not cocaine, the real kind) so far? Hows the neck? Hows Elaine? And whats up with the therapist? Just to talk things out or are you having problems or what? You can talk to me man. Seriously. Well not talk, but write. I studied philosophy you know. I know the answers to the meaning of life. The rub for me comes down to whether there is free will or determinism. I mean, did you ever see Lawrence of Arabia: "Nothing is written" Lawrence (Peter O'Toole) says. Because the Arabs always say "Insh'allah" (if God wills it). This is the basic point of the existentialists: that there is no "essence" to be discovered, that existence precedes essence. This existential freedom can cause great Angst, as Kierkegaard writes about--because we are so radically free, there is nothing to refer to to say "oh yeah, no I've found the 'right way'" etc. Kierkegaard's answer (apologies to Kierkegaard for summarizing the philosophy he took 5,000 pages and 4 different pseudonyms to explain but) is that instead of living life freely as a libertine, chasing after a series of unrelated "experiences" we must make commitments and ultimately, make a commitment to the absurd idea that THROUGH our very choice, we create/discover Reality. Of course Kierkegaard was a Christian. Nietszche writes about overcoming this loss of God (of an essential, transcendent reality) through aesthetic endeavor; his point is that it shouldn't be a depressing idea that there is no "reality" or "right way" or "real self" to be discovered, but that we should be happy that we get to live our lives as our own creations. Of course, Nietzsche eventually went crazy and lived with his mom and sister till he died. But the idea is good.
The thing is, all these philosophers are saying that the idea that there is no "right way" to be discovered can be a heavy and burdensome concept--as we are then responsible for ourselves and the outcomes of our lives--but the flip side to this is that we are able to live our lives as we wish to create them. Our life can be like our own novel. For me this is a freeing idea--if I ever feel overwhelmed I just think about myself in history or my life as a novel. Because who wants to read a novel about someone who gets straight A's through high school and college and then works there way up through the ACME corporation and retires to Florida to golf and then dies. Not a bestseller.
But on the other hand from all the existential stuff, when I have deja-vu, I really think, oh yeah, there is a determinism, there is a destiny, you know? Not to get too pop-sciency here, but all the new crazy discoveries/theories in quantum physics/string theory etc. sound similar to all this. Heisenberg's uncertainty principle, multiple dimensions, parallel universes.
Who knows, is the correct answer? But good thing--what if there was no mystery?? That is Hell. Ever see the Twilight Zone episode where the gambler "goes to heaven." He is there, girls are easy and he wins every hand, hand after hand of cards, he keeps winning. And then he realizes, he's not in heaven but in hell!! Spooky. A good piece of advice I heard recently from an unlikely source (I don't consider myself much of a Mormon), Mitt Romney said his dad told him "Do not despair, but even if you despair, work on."
I'm definitely having a bit of an early mid-life crisis here. I mean, I don't even have a job, I broke up with my girlfriend of 3 years (live-in!) and I'm living with my parents!! Ha! Its so ridiculous, I can't even get that upset about it. Its absurd! But, perseverance. Like Nietszche says "That which doesn't kill you makes you stronger. I definitely believe that. Also getting laid here once in a while which always helps. Snuck a girl I met in the bar into my bedroom on Christmas eve for a nice early morning Christmas present. Ahhh, heathen! I like to think of it as recreating the conception (except I'm guessing she wasn't a virgin).
Anyway, don't mean to pontificate, its just I'm thinking about some of the same shit you are probably. I know there is more to life than making money and a good job--I mean, thats been my modus operandi since I was about 15 years old. But still, I'm at a time in my life, I think like even biologically, where I just want to be making dough and telling people what to do and running shit. And instead, I'm drinking coffee and playing computer chess at my parents house on a cold rainy day when I was tan and surfing Hawaii 2 months ago. Even so, I'm happier now than I was 2 months ago because I was frustrated there. Work on (and rock on?). Aight, like they say bout Makena...'nuff already!
Thursday, January 31, 2008
F#@& You!
Oh yeah? How bout this...fuck you!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jUrIMy5bqwk&eurl=http://video.search.yahoo.com/video/play?vid=1302424007&vw=g&b=41&pos=3&p=scarface&fr=yfp-t-501
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jUrIMy5bqwk&eurl=http://video.search.yahoo.com/video/play?vid=1302424007&vw=g&b=41&pos=3&p=scarface&fr=yfp-t-501
*** warning - this video may contain a few expletives
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Balance! Balance!
Dont watch this at work. Get home, pour yourself a nice cup of something that won't stain when you spit it out and experience.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=raxgcg
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=raxgcg
(completely inappropriate for kids or most self-respecting individuals)
Saturday, January 5, 2008
Tuesday, January 1, 2008
In the beginning, there was.....
What's the point of this blog, you ask? Why do people even blog to begin with? Well, I'm not going to answer those questions, but I will tell you this:
This blog will be a collection of thoughts of a buddy of mine - we'll call him John Stillwaggon. All posts will be his words, not mine, because really if I wanted my own blog, I'd have it. And this isn't it. So consider me a modern day William Sydney Porter, only not as clever, concise, or original.
Read on, may you enjoy my musings, and feel free to comment as you like.
~ ted
PS. ** Correction ** not "my musings", they're John's. Just wanted to be clear on that.
This blog will be a collection of thoughts of a buddy of mine - we'll call him John Stillwaggon. All posts will be his words, not mine, because really if I wanted my own blog, I'd have it. And this isn't it. So consider me a modern day William Sydney Porter, only not as clever, concise, or original.
Read on, may you enjoy my musings, and feel free to comment as you like.
~ ted
PS. ** Correction ** not "my musings", they're John's. Just wanted to be clear on that.
Friday, December 14, 2007
Post Grad thoughts
On a different academic note: did you hear about many of the Ivy's and some of the richer small northeast liberal arts schools are aiming at eventually letting students attend for free if their families are not in the top 5% (200K/year) of wage earners. That means if your folks make 150k you would still go for free!! To Harvard etc.! Pretty crazy. Right now, the benchmark is only at like $75K/year but they're working their way up. Harvard's endowment is at $30 billion! Or around there. And their fund manager's have been averaging annualized return of 20%. No more bugging alumni for bake sale money.
(toward) true meritocracy.
ps. I have a GREAT idea. But I can't tell you. Loose lips sink ships. Its a product this time. Small initial setup costs. Small scale to begin with won't hurt profit margins (in fact, might even help), but also scalable. New, successful and growing sector. Man, I wish I could tell you about it..
(toward) true meritocracy.
ps. I have a GREAT idea. But I can't tell you. Loose lips sink ships. Its a product this time. Small initial setup costs. Small scale to begin with won't hurt profit margins (in fact, might even help), but also scalable. New, successful and growing sector. Man, I wish I could tell you about it..
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